Longing fulfilled

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life

The focus for this week concerning this scripture is ‘’longing fulfilled’’.

When you have a passion for something this can turn into a longing. A longing for something is to feel a strong desire for it. This means that it becomes your drive, your passion. Whatever it is this is something that you know that you were created to do. Think about it, if you could do ONE thing for the rest of your life what would it be?

To have a longing fulfilled, one must know and understand exactly what it is they’re longing for. You can go around the world, searching for but you can stumble by longing for the wrong things. Be careful about what it is you long for because when you receive it, your longing for the thing could die down and then what? You start complaining to God about him giving you what you asked for. What you long for is a manifestation of your character.

Does what you long for demonstrate how much you love God?

This one thing is what you long to do, it is what keeps you up at night. You wake up and it’s the only thing you want to do for the entire day. God is filling your heart with this desire. One thing that I have realised is that your desire will be unique to everyone else and that is okay. In fact, it is better that everyone has a different desire because it means that more people can be reached and get to know more about Christ. You cannot live in someone else’s desire because it won’t fit you. God created you for a specific reason and until you seek him and find out what this desire is you will constantly feel lost.

You are not on your own funnily enough there are people out there with similar desires but because we live in a generation that chooses to have a lack of communication this prevents us from networking and getting to know more detail about how about how to fulfil the desire you have. Fellowshipping with people that have a similar desire is very beneficial because it allows you to realise that you’re not alone in this and that it can be done. One thing to not do is look and compare at how well others are doing and see your situation as a negative thing because you haven’t got the ball rolling. Comparing is a very dangerous thing to do because it can lead you to begin doubting yourself and then you can slowly isolate yourself from others because you don’t feel like you’re good enough. Know that you are God’s best and that wherever you are in life, he loves you regardless.

For your longing to be fulfilled I have a few steps:

  • Talk to God and ask him what your longing is
  • Once you know what your longing is, map it out
  • Research what is out there based on your longing
  • Begin to make movements with your longing

Peace & Love


Twitter: @NatashaK18

Heart Sick

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life

Today’s post will focus on the ‘heart sick’ aspect of this scripture.

The fact that your heart can be sick means that you have to be careful about what you are letting into your heart. Some of us are carrying too much in our hearts that really do not concern us.

Not every battle you face, is yours to fight.

Physically, having your heart sick would mean that there is damage to it. Your heart can experience damage in various ways: not dealing with a break up, abuse, unforgiveness and not being able to let go of the past. All of these things affect the function of your heart. Your heart can be healed but it is your responsibility to receive what God is giving you. In order for your healing to take place then you have to be honest with yourself.

One thing that I have realised is that no one wants to be honest with each other. We are all a bit too quick to reply on how we are looking instead of actually telling people how we are feeling. The way you look will not always determine how you feel. If you have an issue then talk to someone about it, first go to God and pour your heart out to him and then ask God to bring someone to you that will help you face the situation. In order for God to bring someone to us, we have to be open to receive and this comes with us being honest with ourselves and then to God as well. It’s funny because even though God knows everything that is going on, there is a level of respect that you have for him where you will still tell him everything regardless. This is a good form of communication because you are incorporating God into everything that you do and not just what you want him to know.

You have to come to the realisation that not everyone that you open up to is going to hurt you. You need to get out of this mentality that because you have been hurt in the past,  you will be a closed book and not let anyone in. If we carry on like this, God will be trying to tell us something in order to help us but we have already shut down that we won’t be able to hear what God has to say. Then, we will start crying out that we cannot hear God when we have not opened our hearts to receive anything that God wants to give us.

Now, linking this back, deferring your hope, you are causing pain and damage to the heart because ‘’hope deferred makes the heart sick’’. The two are parallels, you choosing not to step into your purpose makes you feel idle. You know when you’re supposed to be doing something and you know exactly what it is you should be doing but you keep putting it off. Your tomorrow never becomes your today. You see everyone else shining but this causes resentment in your heart. Essentially, you are making your heart to be sick and you don’t even realise the impact if the damage you are creating in your heart.

The damage created in the heart can affect the way that you view and live your life. In everything you have a choice, there is a choice of you giving it all up to God and telling God that you believe in him and know that you cannot live this life in your own. Everything presented to us is a choice, are you going to choose to receive healing for your sick heart or are you going to carry on accumulating more and more baggage to your already damaged heart?

Let me challenge you, the next few days, in your quiet time with God, try tell him something in your heart that you have never told anyone and see what happens. Try it out and see how God moves.

Peace & Love


Twitter: @NatashaK18

Hope deferred

The next few weeks I am taking a different approach in just studying one scripture and it is found in Proverbs 13:12 which says ‘’hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life’’.

The definition of hope is a feeling of expectation and a desire for something to happen. Our hopes can found in various things such as: people, dreams, talents and employment. It is good to hope but with hope comes patience. This patience comes in the form of the wait. When you’re waiting on God for something it can seem so long. Sometimes it seems that someone in the world is getting everything they want, when they want it but when you have asked God for what seems right for you, you’re left waiting. As tough as it may be, I am glad that some of the things I have asked God for he made me wait because it is during this waiting period that he is preparing and teaching me more about himself and his ways and also about myself and my character. What if God gave us everything we wanted when we asked for it, would we still need him? Would God still have a purpose in your life?

Having hope in our dreams is a good thing, we all hope to make a difference in the world and we all have a prediction of how we want things to turn out, we have packaged them in a particular way that when our way doesn’t meet God’s way for us we get upset with God. Notice how we require things to be on our terms and not on God’s. We have become too self centred with everything that it seems to be streaming into our relationship with God. We give God what we want based on our needs and on our emotions. This is very dangerous because our emotions will cause us to do things without thinking at all. Therefore, wise decisions are not created when we are in our feelings. We need to deal with the situation then take it to God and leave it there. Not bargain with him so that you can have it back once you have just given it to him but truly give it to him and leave it with him to deal with.

Now, the word deferred means to put something off or to postpone. This makes me think, why would anyone want to postpone hope? If you have an expectation for something then wouldn’t you just want to chase it until it becomes what you do? The fact of the matter is that, we postpone hope due to fear. This fear comes in many forms: fear of failure, fear of not reaching your full potential or fear of not doing a good job. This is what tends to stop people pursuing their dreams. But we need to think of it this way, God has given everyone a unique purpose, something that he knows only you can do in your own style. There are going to be people that I can reach that you cannot reach and there are going to be people that you can reach that I cannot. But the beauty about it is that we keep going as Proverbs 13:12 tells us ‘’hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.’’

The longer you defer the less likely you are to fulfil your dreams, time is flying past us so I want to challenge you this week to do something that’ll bring you a step closer to your dream than you were yesterday. Remember, everyday is a chance to be a better you then you were yesterday.

Peace & Love


Twitter: @NatashaK18

It’s not you, it’s me

How often do we look to God and think, ‘’Lord, it’s not you, you’re perfect in all of your ways but it is me’’?

You tell yourself that it is only just a phase, it is only a season that’s why you’re feeling like this but what happens when the feeling doesn’t fade? You pray. You worship. You express yourself through your gifts/talents but still nothing. Know that God is seeing all of this, your failed attempts to pick yourself up needed to happen because when you find yourself, at the end, this is when God will come through and save you. One thing that has been dwelling with me so far this year, is, yes, I am saved but I still need saving.  

To openly admit that you still need saving shows great maturity because as Christians we can go around acting like we have it all together and we don’t go through any tough times. But who are we trying to kid? As Christians, we go through some pretty trialing situations, so much so, that in the moment, we really don’t know when or how God is going to bring us through but at the last hurdle, there he is. He comes to rescue you but it is because of your diligence and obedience in him. For you to have carried on running even though ahead there were too many obstacles that you knew you couldn’t handle, as Zephaniah 3:17 says ‘’He takes great delight in you’’.

However, it is important to remember as Ephesians 2:8 tells us ‘’for it is by grace you have been saved, through faith- and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works so that no one can know’’. We need to understand that we have been saved through the grace and love of God but we also need to comprehend that salvation is not just a once in a moment thing. It is a process because at times you will feel like you are saved but you still need saving. The fact that you still need saving means that you know that you cannot do this life on your own and you NEED God. Philippians 4:19 says ‘’my God shall supply your every need according to his riches in glory of Christ Jesus’’.  Whatever you need, you can have every confidence that God will give it to you and even better than what you asked for.

Coming to that realisation that God is the only constant factor in your life means that you are allowing him to take total control. You begin to search for more answers through the quality time you spend getting to know more of him. He begins to expose gifts and talents that you yourself didn’t even know you had. You dwell with him any chance you get to the point where you’re so vulnerable with him and then others that others are being set free from watching your relationship with God. As the body of Christ, essentially, this is what we should be aiming to do, building ourselves up in Christ. 1 Thessalonians 5:11 instructs us to ‘’encourage one another and build one another up just as you are doing’’. This scripture highlights the reason of fellowship and how important it is to really and genuinely be there for those that God has placed in your life. Those that are in your life that are God ordained need encouragement too just like you also need to be encouraged to do things, they themselves do as well. It may seem like they have it altogether but it is usually those types of people that are too proud to ask for help. In this, the only thing you can do is pray for those that are in your life.

Have confidence that God is building you up, you are a better version of who you were yesterday. Just continue loving God, serving him, meditating on his word and you will see a great significance in your life but it all comes down to a choice. These are the things you can do if you want to make a change. Change can only happen if you authorise it. You can go from saying ‘’Lord, it’s not you, it’s me’’ to ‘’Lord, however I am feeling, I shall dwell in the house of The Lord all the days of my life’’.

What are you going to be saying to God?

Peace & Love


Twitter: @NatashaK18

Eyes on the prize

Is your prize more about yourself then it is about Christ?

We all have an ambition of what we want to do with our lives, some of us are just going through the motions and floating around seeing where life takes us whereas others are moving when God says move. Essentially, we have a common denominator, we all have somewhere to be. Some are getting to where they need to be faster than others and some have no idea of how they are going to get there but they just know that they are going to get there.

While running the race and making sure that you stay focused in your own lane, you need to have something realistic to aim towards. This is why we have to have our eyes on the prize. But in order for us to have our eyes on the prize we must know what the true prize is and what it entails for us. One scripture that I have been meditating on this past week is Psalm 23:6 which says ‘’surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I shall dwell in the house of The Lord’’. Notice that the scripture says goodness and mercy shall follow us not that we should be chasing goodness and mercy, because with God goodness and mercy should follow us. When you put yourself into the things of God, good things will follow you but it is your choice to allow these good things to come. The only way that these good things will follow you is through your discipline in your secret place. Your secret place is where you and God grind together. This ensures intimacy and a deep dwelling place with him. When you press into the things of God, goodness and mercy shall follow you.

One thing that I have witnessed recently is that as Christians we are slowly, slowly losing the value of sacrifice. Many of us can give the dictionary definition of what sacrifice is but to actually carry out this verb is a different story. In order to sacrifice, you must give up something that you truly value. It makes me think that as Christians at times we feel as though we don’t owe God anything and that by ourselves we can do it. I mean, you can live this life by yourself without God but just know that your resting place when you die is hell. Something that I always remember is that you can chase everything and MISS God but when you find God you get everything We need to focus on the second part of this and realise that everything that God has in store for you is beyond your wildest dreams and he is doing it because he loves you.

Looking at what you consider as a prize, determines what is in your heart. For example, two people can be given the chance to buy anything they have ever wanted in life, one person can choose to buy stock shares in their favourite company and the other person could choose to buy a pair of socks for the homeless person they have just passed. Now, notice the sheer difference in what each person has CHOSE to buy. One will profit themselves and the other is for another person to benefit from. Mark 8:36  tells us ‘’for what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul’’.  Honestly, what does it actually profit someone if they have everything they ever wanted but not have the peace, joy or sound mind to even enjoy all this? This is why it is important that the prize you have your eyes on is only pleasing to God.

Pleasing man will not profit you anything and it’ll cause you to feel down and out when things don’t work out. When choosing to please man over God this causes you to be lukewarm because you are fighting in two camps. Galatians 1:10 tells us ‘’For if I do please man then I am not a true servant of Christ’’.  When you are doing things to have the approval of man the scripture boldly says that we are not servants of Christ. Pleasing man and pleasing Christ is two things that don’t go hand in hand. This will not profit you anything. You need to stay focused, on the prize that you have set and keep going on. The race is still going on whether you realise the impact you’re making or not. Keep seeking the approval of God and notice the changes he will make for you.

Peace & Love


Twitter: @NatashaK18

Stay In Your Lane

With everyone advancing how do you stay focused on your lane?

It is easy to fall back and start walking whilst the race is going on, once you fall back you may just plan to catch your breath for a minute. But, have you noticed that once you take a step back those thoughts flood in.

Thoughts of doubt. Thoughts of comparison. Thoughts of negativity.

You never even intended to begin thinking like this but you just found yourself behind from where you thought you’d be and that’s where it starts. You begin to overthink.

Hold on, what if I can’t do this?

What if this isn’t for me?

How did I get here?

This state is where the enemy loves to creep in and try to overtake you. You will start feeling more sorry for yourself and wonder how you got there. But, the most important thing to remember is that 2 Corinthians 1:20 ‘’for no matter, how many promises God has made, they are ‘yes’ and ‘amen’ in Christ’’. The promises that God has given you will come to flourish but it takes time. In the generation that we live in, where we want everything now, now, now we don’t know what it means to even wait. In fact, some of us have never waited on God.

Ultimately, to wait on The Lord ensures that you are totally submitted and have surrendered to him. Staying in your lane requires you to look within yourself and ask God to make sure that you have a pure heart in all that you are doing. Psalm 51:10 ‘’create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me’’. Creating a pure heart means that everything that you will be doing will come out of a genuine spirit. You will not be doing things for the sake of the appraisal of man but you are just doing things to serve God. In order to have a pure heart you’ll have to change aspects of who you are by allowing God to mould you into the person that he has called you to be instead of you trying to mould yourself. This will not work. Most of us are trying to fit ourselves into the shoes that have been given to us instead of God being the one to help us fit into those shoes.

Being able to stay in lane means that you will b e more focused on the purpose that God has called you for. We need to make sure that we stay focused on just ourselves and not dwelling on what others are doing around us or where they are going. It is easy to fall into the trap of competition. Although, seeing others doing well can be the motivation and drive to push you to be more and do more it is a dangerous nature to adopt. This is where you lose focus and start running in someone else’s lane. This will cause you to get disqualified.

One of the biggest lessons that God taught me last year was that in order for you to gain what he has obtained for you to have, you have to get it yourself. We are crying out to God saying that we are waiting on his word and then we will move but some of us will be waiting a long time for this word. As God has given you everything that you need and most of the time he is just waiting on you to move.

You are where you are for a reason and it is only YOU, yes YOU, that can fully understand what this reason is. When you spend more time with God, understanding his character and what he means to you, you’ll be able to comprehend that you are in your sphere of influence for a reason. 1 Peter 2:9 says ‘’you are a CHOSEN people, a ROYAL priesthood, a holy nation, God’s SPECIAL possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out’’. God has chosen you for this time, wherever you are, whether you think that you are not doing enough or you think that you are doing too much God sees every effort that you make. One scripture that is so profound for me is 1 Samuel 16:7 ‘’for man looks at the outward appearance, but The Lord looks at the heart’’.

Look at your heart and ask yourself what lane you’re in

Peace & Love

Twitter: @NatashaK18


Hey guys, so this week is a double whammy just to get me back into the swing of things.

After expressing that I was in the mountain gaining more fuel to endure the race, I think it is important to talk about the journeys of the race.

Some people may consider the start of the race the easiest because this is the start point.  This is the stage where you’re a baby Christian, so this is where you are getting into the things of Christ such as reading his word, going to church and fellowshipping amongst other believers. At this stage is when you decide where you want to be either for God or against him. Revelation 3:15-17 says I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot; I wish that you were cold or hot. Essentially, this is telling us that you are to choose which fence you sit on, if you’re going to be hot for God, be hot and it’s your responsibility to remain hot but if you’re going to be cold, well, then that’s your choice.

But it is all a choice.

As you carry on running, you now come across various obstacles and distractions to disqualify you from the race. You will face these obstacles because the enemy knows the calling on your life and he wants to catch you off guard to take you out. He will use everything and anything to trip you up but the question is; how bad do you want Christ? Based on the answer to this question, this will determine how you are going to endure this stage of the race. It is easy for you to get hit and keep yourself down, sometimes it seems easier to wallow in self pity and adopt the nature of ‘woe is me’ however this is a selfish trait. What you are going through, is not just for you but for those around you. People are watching you to see what does happen when you do fall and what type of Christian you are when the fall comes.

Are you lukewarm and dismiss Christ when life happens, do you dwell on how bad your situation is and how it makes you feel or do you carry on praising through the process?

Hurdles can come at all different angles but the most important thing is to keep running. At times we don’t even know where we are running or what we are running towards but it is that which shows significant faith. 2 Corinthians 5:7 says ‘’for we live by faith and not by sight’’ which is a scripture very relevant when looking forward to gaining something through faith, living by faith is running the race and knowing that each step that you take you are not where you used to be but you are going where you need to be. Although, we cannot see what is ahead of us we have faith that God is going to bring us through because as Numbers 23:19 tells us that God is not a man that he should lie.

When running the race and you do face hurdles, you need to ensure that you have the word in your heart therefore when things do hit, you know that God is stored in everything that you do. One scripture that has resonated with me about the importance of keeping the word is what David wrote in  Psalm 119:11 saying ‘’I have hidden your word in your heart that I might not sin against you’’.

Moreover, I just want to challenge you with this:

Is the word really in your heart whilst enduring each stage of the race?

Peace & Love

Twitter: @NatashaK18